Written 11/23/25 & posted 11/25/25

Well, if you read last weeks post you may also notice that I did in fact not post more here or on my socials like I had intended at the end of that post. I’m not really upset about that because the reason that didn’t happen was due to actually being busy. Which is a totally new phenomenon for me and I’m adapting to adjust to it becoming my new normal.

For the past decade I quite literally didn’t do anything. My default thought when presented with an activity or thinking of one was “I’d rather not.” Even semi-joking to my mom that I should get “I rather would” tattooed on my wrist as a constant reminder to actually do something. My brother and I are planning tattoos though and mines going on my forearm, so that reminder tattoo isn’t happening. In the past I would vacillate between wanting only to do nothing (sit on my computer) and knowing that was bad for me, but my social anxiety and internal thoughts prohibiting me from acting on it. Maybe instead of THC, doing nothing is my greatest vice.

Now that I have activities I want to do, I can’t seem to focus, hence the current them extended from last week about lacking focus. Part of it is learning to appropriately allocate my time. When you have nothing to do, you have unlimited time. Going from that to a surplus of things to do is a bit of a learning curve. Add on my proclivity to procrastinate and it’s not a great combo.

But I also realize that I’m in the process of changing quite a lot about myself and that can’t all be done simultaneously. I had this eureka-like moment over a long weekend when I was on some random PTO. Doing all this in tandem with my normal job is proving more challenging than perhaps I first thought. However, I’m still overall please with my ongoing progress. I have more PTO scheduled soon I will hopefully utilize in the same manner as last month.

Another learning element is my socializing. I went out 3 times in a row last week. In the past it’d be unlike for me to go out 3 times in 3 months. It likely wouldn’t have gone out so much if not for a surprise rare invite from my brother, which I equally rarely will turn down, unless I’m in a down mood. This socializing has largely been positive; I’m meeting and interacting with new people and slowly gaining a kind of confidence. Although, I do still find it quite draining. Honestly, being around people seems to not just mentally drain me, but physically as well.

I’ve also realized that if these weekly posts don’t get completed on Sunday mornings, they’re unlikely to get completed that day. Especially since currently and around the upcoming holidays my day job workload picks up quite a bit. This post is a bit of a nothing-burger, but I at least wanted to get something out. Next weeks will be more substantive – promise!

Hope anyone reading this has a happy holiday!

Be well, be intentional, and make something,

Uncle Dump