Written 01/12/25 & Posted 01/18/25

Wrote and mulled this post over during the week and just deciding to use it for today’s post. The other writing I did today was for my world-building and that’s not ready to be shared yet.

It’s been a bummer couple of weeks. In my head I’ve rationalized and am fine with postponing my move until next year. However the loss of urgency and cancellation of plans slowly spiraled me into a back slide of some of the bad habits that I had been curbing. I had a few other minor setbacks and my lazier self-won out so I ended up vegging out hard during my holiday vacation.

I’ve had a problem with procrastination pretty much my entire life. Probably one of my worst traits. I’ve been doing a lot better with it recently since beginning this site but it’s reared its ugly head again. It goes something like this; I now have a whole year, that’s plenty of time, so nothing really needs to happen NOW. It’s the totally wrong way of thinking but my head just gets trapped in loops like this sometimes. I still feel on the better path, I’ve just lost a little momentum I need to regain.

Also, I had been binging true crime on YouTube and that shits just depressive by nature.  Here are some links to the channels I’ve been watching if you’re curious: @JCS, @ExploreWithUs, @TheVillainsCrime, @watchtrublu, @sosaundercover. The content is depressive, but in a sick sort of way, watching truly evil and stupid people ruin their lives and others makes me feel better about my life and helps me conceptualize my own short comings. But along those same lines, the first few news cycles of the new year have been really bad too. So it’s been kind of a vortex of negativity lately that I’ve been struggling to deal with. I can’t do my dad’s ostrich approach and just stick my head in the sand. The belief that because civilization is moving forward, therefore the current time is always the best time to be alive, regardless of anything that’s happening. But I need to find an appropriate way to cope with this recurring hopelessness.

Mainly, the US has, of course, been continuing it’s headfirst march into fascism. That’s not an exaggeration or hyperbole at this point. The country is being run into the ground by pedophiles and billionaires, that’s an objective fact. The class war is the longest war in history, and our country is designed to perpetuate it at every turn. Police protect property over person, they fought in the courts for that distinction. They are not your friends, they are the enforcement of a rigged system and can kill you with near impunity on a whim. A soccer mom is murdered in broad daylight on video for everyone to see.  That murderer was allowed by his cop and nazi buddies to calmly leave the scene, while the FBI obstructs any investigation. Businessmen sitting in skyscrapers are legally allowed to kill millions through a spreadsheet in the constant pursuit of increased profits. But the moment one of them is killed, a multi-state manhunt is conducted. The message is clear, it’s ok for them to kill you, but they can’t be touched. 

“The Party told you to reject the evidence of your eyes and ears. It was their final, most essential command.”

― George Orwell, 1984

The current party might as well have wrote the above, they’re saying exactly the same thing. Anyone who disagrees is simply willfully not paying attention, which can take many forms. Well ignorance truly is bliss I guess. Otherwise you might have to cope with the realization that the thin veil of societal rules and norms is just that, a facade. Our country has the resources and capability to feed, clothe and house its total population. The billionaires and their puppets have decided continuous war abroad and at home is preferable.

Now I’ll be a good little peasant and get back to work for my lords.

I contemplated over the week if I should add more or express myself more clearly. But it’s already crystal clear and I won’t be changing anyone’s mind here. So I’ll just follow Kevin Malone’s advice from the office “why waste time say lot word when few word do trick?”

Be safe out there friends.

Uncle Dump